At this point I don’t even know if it’s better to keep trying to work on my papers that are due Friday morning or go to sleep because I have to get up in less than 8 hours…
I’d actually gotten ready and all and climbed into bed already and I just felt too horrible about not having more done that I got back out of bed and woke my computer back up and I didn’t even turn the lights back on or put on my glasses but I just don’t know right now what’s more helpful, to keep working or actually get some sleep before I hyperventilate. But if I go to bed will I actually sleep or just keep feeling crappy?
I just have to write these two papers and do our poster presentation Thursday and then classes are over and it’s just finals which I’m not worried about at all (yet) but I have truly never been this worried about being able to get stuff done… I don’t know what’s wrong with me but I’ve never had this much trouble focusing/getting in the zone/mood/motivated. I really don’t know what the problem is and I really don’t know if/when I’ll be able to get these done. I haven’t even worked on the seminar one yet but at least I have our old draft to build off of for that.
Now that I’ve spent two hours not wanting to do anythinnnnnnnnnnnnnnnng. I should do something. Probs still not my research paper though :/
Almost wish I’d not come home and then I wouldn’t have the overwhelming urge to smack the hell out of anyone who ever slurps coffee and smacks while they eat (both my parents are horrendous—they’re louder eaters than the cat). And I don’t have any idea how the hell I’m ever going to get anything done if these people don’t stop running around and smacking and slurping and doing this and that and talking over and over to no one about nothing and it is all so damn distracting, JUST SIT STILL AND SHUT UP. My god. Every time I come home lately it’s nice for a little bit at certain times and then I just want to kill people and decide that I’ll never ever live with anyone at all. GO AWAY. Like, can you guys go on an extended vacation somewhere I hate and just leave me and my kitty here? SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP, just let me watch my Harry Potter marathon and work on this damned paper in peace. jldfjlaskfjasf Pretty sure I got twice as much done in the time I was here alone as I have since dad got back from his hiking thing.
It is Thanksgiving morning and the parade is on and all I can think is
- I still haven’t watched The Day of the Doctor
- I am never going to start/finish my research paper that’s due next week and I’ll fail my soc class. Womp.
I saw the Hello Kitty balloon though, that’s the important part of the day.
o.getglue.com is shutting down Monday
They’re starting animated stickers because they think it will make people less upset about the fact that they will not mail physical stickers anymore.
Apparently a new facebook layout is happening. Again.
There’s gonna be a new section of stuff in Papa’s Pastaria
(The Pastaria stuff will probably be fine but I’m upset about the rest of it.)
SLOW IT DOWN PEOPLE. Why do all the websites always change things at the same time?!
I GOT A 92 ON MY TEST
I mean, I cried about it for like 24 hours between studying and thinking I’d done horribly on it.
But who cares because I actually got a 92!
And it’s still possible to get an A in the class! Still cutting it super-duper close, but possible!
This might sound ridiculous, but I’ve developed a theory that crying makes your teeth move. Because I’ve noticed lately that when I put my retainers in at night, they’re more uncomfortable on the days I’ve had crying fits.
Pretty sure I just bombed the test that I spent hours and hours trying to study for (hours actually studying and hours trying to get computer shit to work so I could study) and I’m pretty sure the last two questions were just like giant mind-fuck trick questions and I think I totally screwed both of them up which sucks because they’re worth 26 points together anddddddddd yeah. I’m really not sure that half of the stuff on there was anything we actually did in class. I don’t even know what to do right now. I’ve never been so worried about my grade in a class since I started college and this is by far the hardest psych class I’ve had. I don’t even remember at what point I realized I was accidentally getting a 4.0 in the major but this one class could ruin all of it. I just want an A in this class and then I don’t see any reason why I should be worried about the last 2 psych classes I’m taking next semester. I will not have any idea how to deal with it if this one test screws me up for the class and this one class screws me up for my major gpa.
I slept through one of my phone alarms last night and missed a Doctor Who sticker.
I had one of those awful middle-of-the-night leg cramp things so that really sucked and my leg’s been sore all day.
I was gonna be on tumblr for like half an hour and then do important stuff but I opened too many tabs and my internet started going super-duper slow and that took like an hour and a half to get back to normal.
I had to get my allergy shots today and wait a bit longer than usual so that was obnoxious.
And I need to study for my test tomorrow but I need stuff from the computer program we use that’s only in the labs
so I did a remote desktop thing but the thing took forever to open
and then its license is outdated or something and I think that’s why there’s no print button? And it wouldn’t let me copy and paste
So I was going to connect to a different lab and see if that one was working but then the whole connection thing froze and wouldn’t get off my laptop and that was obnoxious and kind of scary
So now I’m just really frustrated and I have not studied nearly enough for this but I need to print those things out and I dunno if I wanna waste an hour trying it all again or go all the way to a lab and deal with people just to print out a few things and the program’s not that much faster in the labs anyway.
This is one of those days where all the little things are going wrong and I do not fucking have the fortitude for it right now.
Update, one hour later:
I connected to the different lab and it was a lot faster and it had the option to print.
I really had to go to the bathroom and when I came back it had printed 15 pages and run out of paper and I was like, oh geez what the heck
So I copied and pasted all 3 of them into word documents so I could take some of the extra crap out and make it a more reasonable length.
And I finally got the first one printed
But the other two keep saying it’s “outside the printed area” and I keep trying stuff but I can’t figure out how to fix it and omg by the time I get these things printed I’m like not even gonna use them even though/because this is the part I understand the least to begin with, like not even counting all these fricking problems.
Our syllabus says there’s no class today and we talked about it in class on Tuesday but she didn’t send out an e-mail so I’m still nervous about not going. I don’t even have a friend in there to double-check with. I am not going though, because I got things I need to do. (Which are not working on the paper for that class which is what it says to do on the syllabus. But it’s not due for another week and a half.)
I wish I didn’t get worried/nervous about everything though. :/
Why yes, I did just basically waste 4 hours doing almost nothing school-related…
*sigh* It’s only like 30 days until finals are over and I still have a good bit of stuff left to do and I have lost like all motivation and focus this week. I mean I’ve been doing a lot of internet stuff—here, polyvore, pinterest,… And a few things for grad school applications. But nothing to get ahead on school :( Blegh
Having one of those coming-back-to-school times where I just really really don’t want to be here.
Especially this week when I have a quiz tomorrow (haven’t even finished the reading yet much less studied), registration for classes tomorrow, running a study Tuesday, paper due Wednesday (watched the 2 movies but haven’t started writing), allergy shots Wednesday, running a study Wednesday, maybe a quiz Thursday, test Friday, President’s Ball Saturday, going to a thing for my friend Sunday, a test next Tuesday… And who knows what after that, that’s as much as I can hold in my brain right now.
Like, on the one hand it’s 42 days until I go home for winter break. But that just means I have less than 40 days to finish ALL THE THINGS including papers and finals and uggggggggggggh.
Anyway, I gotta get my shit together for this quiz and we have a group meeting at 8:30 and blegh.
I don’t think people understand how stressful it is to explain what’s going on in your head when you don’t even understand it yourself.